by James Panthyr

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released January 4, 2017

written and produced by James Panthyr
Engineered and additional production by Joe Varela
Mixed by James and Joe
Mastered by Cary Miller



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once i thought i had to keep my mouth shut to survive
watching everybody take up space, i felt the voice inside me die
once i waited for somebody else to validate my mind
taking cues from everyone around, so cunningly contrived

but i'm bringing back to life the part of me that i shut down
domesticated animal found his way to fertile ground
and i gotta be wild, yes i gotta be wild

i'm feeling shameless because i'm sick of insecure
i'm feeling overwhelmed by all the many ways i can't conform
i won't lose myself again in some numbed out normalcy
i'm feeling shameless and i don't care what you think of me

once i looked to you to tell me about my truth
i couldn't trust the voice inside of me, i was afraid of all that i might lose
but the pain of being shut down is greater than the fear of opening up
so i'm smashing that story, right here right now
sing with me as it turns to dust that you gotta be wild
yes i gotta be wild


i won't apologize for my life